The Supposed-Final Sem

This Semester has been cra-zzz so far. like seriously. lotsa things happened. managed to handle some, but there's always something that nearly screw things up, (or they actually did) and it's that something that put a test on your ability, maturity. I think i failed the test in a way.

ok, while I'm stilll waiting for the freaking slow download here, lets continue a lil bit more...

Erm, what should I say? I'm here climbing up from every single fall, like a little kids, yes, I'm still a minor. Somehow, my face just don't fix my status as a minor, i know i know...

Ok back to the topic. Well, nothing can be more shocking with a pre-sem breaking news. I thought it will be my final semester. I was wrong. So wrong. thinking bout graduation without the original bunch of classmates could easily break me down, into parts. I've some friends who even ask me to be the photographer for the graduation that I will, for the time being, pass on. I... erm... I seriously thought that I will need to pass on that. I can't imagine myself breaking down in sad tear, instead of the original happy tears. And, i certainly don't want myself to see that side of me for another round. Yes, 1 round is enough.  Enough.

And, sometimes my determination/stubbornness could just easily kill me. It's really a life changing decision. And certainly got me into all sort of challenges that I could've expected and tackle with ease. But no, I thought I'm good in handling all the challenges. No, I was wrong again. If it wasn't my bunch of friends, I don't think I could get through all these, I don't think I could get this far. And, I deeply appreciate every single help, every one of you, You, YOU. Thank you. I believe I can give a return-favour when it's time.

Regret. Yes, I wouldn't deny that I actually feel regret with certain decision. But, turning it around, if it wasn't all these regretted decision, I wouldn't be any stronger like this. If it wasn't the major breaking, I wouldn't learn how to stand up strong. If it wasn't...

Not to forget, the shadow which accompany since August. =)