牛 Year

it's moo year now...

listening to the firework sound outside, i feel so not-in-the-mood...

and it is silent now...

no more firework sound...

no more ppl staying outside

no more...nothing...

only...

the ticking sound of the rain fill the surrounding...

the feeling of coldness fill the night...

the smell of firework smoke fill my room...

and, what fill my mind now?

nothing...

nothing besides my future...

another year is right in front of me...

and yet

i feel so unprepared

i feel so frustrated

i feel so scare to step out n make my own decision

i feel so sorry for myself that i never fully achieve my goals in '08

im sorry...

really sorry for creating such disappointment to ppl b'side me...

my parents especially...

But,

im proud of myself too...

for being able to survive quite successfully in '08...

exactly 9 months...

9 months that i out of my home

out of Sarawak

staying somewhere which at first was totally a strange place to me...

friend...no

ppl who speak eng all the time...yes

that was how i define ppl there at first...

soon...

i got my first friend, second, third n the list goes on...

i got to speak all in eng in a day for the first time...

i got the chance to go to new places

i got to eat different taste of food with the same name in S'wak

i got the chance to try out something new in my life

i joined gym which make my life even more interesting there

i got everything new there!!!

n thanks...

i wanna say thanks to ppl who assist me all the way in my 9 months life there...

i wanna thank my gang...

i wanna thank my lecturers...

i wanna thank my homwtown fren...for making donation to me...

i wanna thank SK...for helping me(everything) in hostel...

i wanna thank my roommate...for no reason...lol...

n last...

i wanna thank my parents...

they are the biggest source of all the thanks stated above...

thank you...

thank you for making my life colourful in '08...

and now...

i wanna give my first wish of 09 to my family-wish all my family members stay healthy n strong n 'unbeatable' too... only they know what i mean here by unbeatable...

second wish to all my friends, high school friends, college friends, sunway friends, hi-bye fren n my fello blog readers- wish y'all achieve ur moo year goals...

n my last wish is for myself- hope i'll be in-the-mood asap, n the most important thing, get start with my uni life asap, study is better than anything else...i have to admit this...

end MOO end YEAR end