Surrender

Surrender, originally uploaded by Storiesbehindem.

Do you surrender to problems?
Or you fight back every time you face a problem in your life?

I surrender to problems when it's something that is uncontrollable like "love". Most recent surrender from me would be letting go that special someone that I met, that special someone that get me crazy for almost a month, that special someone that mark down a remarkable history in my love story. That special someone left gym before I gather the courage to ask her name. Well, not gonna spinning around and around at this roundabout. It's time to get going.

And when do you fight back?No no, not physical fight back here. What i mean is stand up and face the problem. This need courage as well. Thing doesn't always as what you've planned. Problems come along with solution and then solution create another new problem. It keeps going on that way. Surrender is definitely no the way to solve problems.

Conclusion is--- SURRENDER smart or FIGHT BACK hard!

Smile

Smile, originally uploaded by Storiesbehindem.

Even though it's colourless,
Even though the tasks are hard
Even though he is your enemy
Even though they don't like you
Even though you did something wrong

When it seem like nothing else can be done,
Put on your biggest asset- SMILE

Live you life with SMILE =)

July 31, 2010 A date with Katy Perry and Wonder Girls

July 31th was a great day that mark down sth new, sth significant in my history.


"IT WAS THE DAY I GAVE MY FIRST TIME TO KATY PERRY AND WONDER GIRLS"

haha, I kept saying Katy Perry is awesome, and yea I wanna repeat it again, SHE IS AWESOME last night!! Finally I've experienced my first concert and WONDER GIRLS were few steps in front of me!!! COOLNESS! AWESOMENESS!!!

But I didn't enjoy to the max... it's all because "half of the world was turned off on me".

Journal of the day,July 18th

I used to be the person who want a lot of things at once, Greedy-if u were to put them all in one word. For once, I was unable to distinguish what is the need and want even though I've study all these in econ. How silly a person can be when he over desire and turn out to become greedy and then everything become a dream and next the bubble burst in the split of second!

People always say it's good to dream blablabla... Yeap, agreed! How can one survive without dream! For me, to dream successfully, one must know how to control his/her dream. You're fail to live the dream if you let the dream to control you. I personally have been struggling to control all the "wants";dream;desires. So far so good I would say.

For once, I was obsessed with DSLR, lens, HTC Touch Pro 2-->Iphone 4-->HTC Desire-->BB Bold II and recently want to get a new laptop from Macbook Pro-->ASUS...... And thanks god to the "angle" for fighting all the "evil" thoughts inside me. Though I'm not sure when are the evils gonna make a return for revenge, but so far it has been well controlled. I no longer wan MBP, no longer crazy bout Canon EOS50D, lensss.... no longer wan BB... no longer want this and that. I thanks myself for the self control which has been well practiced for the past 7 years at least. It's hard especially when there's no one around you to control you when you get lost, what is left with you is the self control the self discipline.

Talking about self discipline, I know deeply that I've change a lot to some people. I know that I'm rude sometimes. I know that I'm lacking in emotional control. I'm struggling with it too, not that I don't know who I've becoming, what kind of person I've change. But I believe the "me" in me is still there. Maybe the new me is just a way to express the stress that i face recently, maybe it's just a temporary one, maybe i need time to adjust and have my so called "self control" back in practice. It's ok to make fun of how i've change, it's ok to say i'm rude, it's ok to throw the words back on me.... im ok with everything anything unless I've totally change to another person which is impossible. Give me time, I'm fighting both the greedy side and the evil side of me... i need some times! Sorry to those who I create disappointment to, hurt with words.... Another apologize to myself for losing my pure side... I'm gonna get it back no matter what's the cost.

To Do List

I hereby officially announced the end of Semester 3. Hope I've did well enough to get through to Sem 4. By that, I mean the exam. Anyways, Sem 3 started off with a pretty well. I was about to reject the responsibility in the club but sth hold me back and tell me that this is the chance to show who I am, and how capable I am in doing thing. So, I accepted the challenge. How challenging of the responsibility that I didn't notice has then almost drag me down to the ground. But, there is always ways to keep myself motivated and I'm glad I did. There were a lot of mistakes as I'm virgin in this kinda of task (virgin enough to use the "virgin" word... lmao) That's how people learn, from mistakes... "Mistake guide you through success- Joseph C." lol

Others than that, I'm gonna admit and agree with the lecturers. They have warned us at the end of sem 2 that SEM 3 is gonna be different, BIG BIG different in fact. Yea, different enough to make me few terrible throughout the whole sem. Things were just somehow different compared to sem 1 n sem 2. They are nothing indeed, to be compared to sem 3. Assignment after assignment, class after class, research after research, presentation after presentation (reserved to be used at the end of sem 4) and of course slacking after slacking. It's all about time management. It's like playing plants vs zombies... One after another before I managed to kill em all!! hmm, btw i finish playing the game within one days, all the level... haha, so proud of myself. hehe

Besides studies, I have few trips: KL Tower Trip, ha i know it sound pathetic, but it was fun at least. Also, I have my first outstation working trip to Melaka. Oww... this was the best job I've ever had so far. I have a queen size bed for me alone at Holiday Inn, sea view from my unit. And them we had food, food, food, and food. Tried nonya, then cendol, chicken rice and some restaurant!! After the outstation job, I stop working temporarily to cope with my studies. And, I am now back to work again... Weeeeheeee... WORK=MONEY=MBP

Actually, I have the second thought of getting PC instead of Mac due to the price. There are so many thing I have to consider in getting a MBP. First, of course the price, after getting that, I'm sure I have to ikat perut dy. Next, talking about switching from PC to Mac is not an easy task, talking about the operating system, thinking about the software problem, also the Photoshop problem.... haiz... I wonder I will end up with a Mac.

FIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFAFIFA.... FIFA fever on the go... waiting for next match. Chile vs Spain. I hope Chile win lol...

Anyways, after dragging so much on SEM 3 review, i shall start the to do list post...

1. Clean the floor--- checked
2. Clean my ipod--- checked
3. Clear my notes--- checked
4. Organize the Poster Photoshooting album
5. Organize everything in my computer
6. Target earning RM400, 80 working hours in 3 week times
7. New pillow
8. Monday, 1 hr of Zumba n 1 hr of Combat; Abs, chest, back,
9. Tuesday, 1 hr of hip hop; Abs, chest, thigh, arm
10. Wednesday, 1 hr of Combat; Abs chest, back
11. Thursday, free
12, Friday, 1 hr of hip hop; Abs, chest, arm, back


Hope the workout plan goes smoothly and looking forward to reach 78kg before sem 4 commence.

Damn, there is so many things that i wanna buy, laptop, protein, earphone.... haiz...

ciao....

18sx

Well, 18sx here... Nah!!! it's not so 18sx lar. Anyways, this happened some days ago. I was on the way walking to the campus and there were 2 ladies in front of me walking slowly and blocking the godamn narrow pathway! It was not a bit deal anyways with that part. What matter is that they are holding their hand, sorry to say that I actually look in detail, and yea they were holding hand by finger cross finger that type. The first think appeared in my head was ok never mind, this are what girls do, little childish game. It somehow annoyed me though. So I found the opportunity to bypass them and headed to the soya stall and bought my usual MJ. Unfortunately, when I was about to leave the stall the two ladies appeared in front of me again. Again, in same "condition", happily swinging their two closely-sucked-together palms, act as no one is around. Hah! Sweat!!! The weather is already hot plus the extra temperature from the "free show" in front of me, I got even sweaty at the back. I'm like if u wanna do that pls at least be discreet and keep it to yourselves. Be Monogamous k! Lol One more encounter like this, even worse than this one! It happened at the uni, the common area when students hang out for studies, assignment.... So me and my groupmates were busying with our assignment. Opposite me one seat to the left was this girl sitting there doing her school work, whatever it is! Not until the gf come, yea it's gf, you know what I mean. The show started since then! Well it all started with the some little hugging, and I thought, again it may be something all girls can freely do with their frens. But thing get even more Excited when there were close actions, well by close action I really mean CLOSE. You know what I meant, don't you. Haha... One of my fren eventually left the scene, but the others remained. They even spot the really close actions scene where I don't even dare to raise my head to see lor. I was told there were lotsa 18sx scenes! Anyways, the msg that I wanna pass on through this post is that BE MONOGAMOUS all the lbgt. Even though I'm ok with it, well to a certain level, but there are still a lot of people who cannot accept it. It's the fact. And I'm not here to say they are wrong. They are just another human species which is growing nowadays (based on my research 2 years ago). Continuation to the story, I also met guys who holdig hand. But I can 100% accept that, cause they are bangla. It's their tradition. I don't know why but it is their thing since long ago. I hereby announce the end of this 18sx post.

Lil Chick

Lil Chick 2, originally uploaded by Storiesbehindem.

This little chick is cute, beautiful and sweet!!! I did the best I can to save this picture from its original over exposure piece... hmm... don't wanna waste it just to dump into the recycle bin... there u go...

Today is considered as the unproductive day... went to uni to study, but didn't manage to get into the study mode much, all because of GLEE, ALEJANDRO!!!! lol... so much laughter, so much fun...

Had Subway and Sushi king for dinner... and gosh J pull it off just as perfect as Bass... i mean the suspender...lol going to try it out next time!

The Pathway

The Pathway, originally uploaded by Storiesbehindem.

Weeheee!!! Finally come out with another HDR after the long break of doing HDR.... Picture was taken during the KL Tower Trip in raw.

Colourful pathway toward success. Hmm.... is it always that colourful? To me, sometimes it's as dark as the charcoal. But, who cares it's dark or colourless... as long as you enjoy along the journey and learn from ur surrounding...

the iBitches

I have enough for the MacBook Pro dy. And now comes the iPhone 4!!!

i HATE YOU all the iBitches!!!

i LOVE YOU all the iBitches!!!

Whatever~~~ no money no talk!

Why do most BF dont like their GF's ex

Hmmm... I was chatting with fren, well ex gf actually, on msn. She is not a computer person, but has been online quite often lately. So, we were chatting about this n that. Then suddenly she came out with the question 

"Why do most BF do not like their GF's ex?"

My answer was...

"Because it's the matter of securing their current position".... which is so true for those who lack of confident. After that she continue to ask why need to secure as she still don't get it. Well this happened in her current relationship whereby her bf don't like me. This is kinda sad for her actually, and god know she don't like that too. But, she can't do anything besides explaining. 

So, after all that, I told her she might just as well let it be, it's not up to her to change his perception toward me anyways. Rather, it's him to control whatever feeling toward me. So, instead of  risking to save me a lil bit in this situation, it would be better she work on building up their confident in their current condition. And, I knew they did pretty well so far.

So, I was then jokingly ask whether I can add him up in FB though I know the appropriate way would be not to. Anyways, comes her response "better not to" as expected. haha So, that way I ended this topic with her. 

I'm kind of miss her now. After all, the 400 days with her was such a memory of a lifetime. I miss her sushi, her maggi mee style, her smile, her tears, her voice, her short hair, her long hair, her small lil palm which share a lil bit of my palm's sweat, her...............................................................

Back to May when I returned hometown for my Sis's wedding......

I was looking at all the home deco that I used to take care of in the TV set cabinet, and I found the section where I kept quite a number of the belongings during the sweet time with her. That reminds me of so many pictures when we were together. Hmm... I seriously do keep some, well not all, of the things that she gave me... including some of the most memorable lil things: the little turtle, the keychain that she made for me, though it's not in its perfect shape dy... the half of the black n white pig.... hmm...

I doubt she will read on this, but if you do, SW, may I know, do you still keep all the things that I gave u? just out of curious

Anyways, best of luck to you both.