Here I am

Im here...
Im here again...
finally...

continued...

i have to say this...

i have to be honest to say this out....

i need to...

im an honest person

yes... I AM

so, i need to be honest on this matter.

I seriously need to say THAT....

THE WEATHER is f***ing HOT right now....

n im going to die if theres no rain tomorrow n tomorrow n tomorrow...

Im gonna die of shrinking or swelling to burst!!!!

God, pls....

i know u hear my...

PLS...

end RAIN end

All about tomorrow

erm... tomorrow is quite important for me...

coz its concern with my future...

and whats that so important to me?

im gonna go uni...

asking everything single detail that i need to know

and then...

im gonna go take my cert from vanitha or ruma...

next, LAN subj cert from Mr jeff

then, go monash to see if theres any hope left...

then make my final decision... and apply uni...

hope ill make a really good decision tomorrow...

and...

Whats next????

im gonna pack my gym stuffs

n setting out for my gym training n classes after few month i did my member suspension...

IM back.... yeppy!!!!

next?

no more next...

prepare for uni life...

n spending my time at my new house with new roommate n housemates....

p/s: lucky the owner is a very nice person... easy to talk n everything...

end TOMORROW end

CNY visiting

Some photo from frens' cam...

to the girl beside me: eat more!!! u're too skinny...lol

end CNY end VISITING end

Damn it!!

what the!!!!

lappy died two day ago...

when i was halfway changing blog template n everything...

dy one yr i never bring it go c doctor...

who to blame???

me, myself of course...

so,

no more pic editing,

no more song updating,

no more lappy to use...

until it recover...

hope gonna be ok after reformat...

lucky still got my bro's com here... so, i can continue my blog stuff

except photo editing... no photoshop, no other editing tool also...

what computer is this...

haiz...

gonna back soon with some cant-face-the-world firework shots!!! first time experience... what to do... learn lor... anywhere, do check out my coming post.

end STUPID end VIRUS end

BIg BIG change

This is my 100th post of my blog...

SO what????

So, i decide to change my blog... a BIG change!!!

Still under construction!!!

Think

Think

Im thinking of this...And that

And then...

I keep on thinking bout it...

Again n again,

I THINK!!!

Lying on my bed... I think

Driving on the road...I think

Eating alone at the kitchen... I think

Half sleep in the express...I think

On the way home in the taxi... I think

Facing the big flat screen... I think

Taking shower in the bathroom... I think

And, what am I thinking all these times?

Yes, Im thinking of what im thinking...

Im thinking of what i should think...

Im thinking of why I wan to think...

Im thinking of how i wan to think...

Im thinking of when is all this thinking gonna stop...

And, im here again...

Thinking about it...

Never rest a minute not to think bout it...

THINK...

I'll keep thinking bout it until the time i know im thinking too MUCH...

Pls, let me know that what I think is right or wrong........

Pls, let me know if im thinking too much...

PLS

Think bout it...and let me know....

Think!!!!

end I end THINK end IM end CRAZY end

牛 Year

it's moo year now...

listening to the firework sound outside, i feel so not-in-the-mood...

and it is silent now...

no more firework sound...

no more ppl staying outside

no more...nothing...

only...

the ticking sound of the rain fill the surrounding...

the feeling of coldness fill the night...

the smell of firework smoke fill my room...

and, what fill my mind now?

nothing...

nothing besides my future...

another year is right in front of me...

and yet

i feel so unprepared

i feel so frustrated

i feel so scare to step out n make my own decision

i feel so sorry for myself that i never fully achieve my goals in '08

im sorry...

really sorry for creating such disappointment to ppl b'side me...

my parents especially...

But,

im proud of myself too...

for being able to survive quite successfully in '08...

exactly 9 months...

9 months that i out of my home

out of Sarawak

staying somewhere which at first was totally a strange place to me...

friend...no

ppl who speak eng all the time...yes

that was how i define ppl there at first...

soon...

i got my first friend, second, third n the list goes on...

i got to speak all in eng in a day for the first time...

i got the chance to go to new places

i got to eat different taste of food with the same name in S'wak

i got the chance to try out something new in my life

i joined gym which make my life even more interesting there

i got everything new there!!!

n thanks...

i wanna say thanks to ppl who assist me all the way in my 9 months life there...

i wanna thank my gang...

i wanna thank my lecturers...

i wanna thank my homwtown fren...for making donation to me...

i wanna thank SK...for helping me(everything) in hostel...

i wanna thank my roommate...for no reason...lol...

n last...

i wanna thank my parents...

they are the biggest source of all the thanks stated above...

thank you...

thank you for making my life colourful in '08...

and now...

i wanna give my first wish of 09 to my family-wish all my family members stay healthy n strong n 'unbeatable' too... only they know what i mean here by unbeatable...

second wish to all my friends, high school friends, college friends, sunway friends, hi-bye fren n my fello blog readers- wish y'all achieve ur moo year goals...

n my last wish is for myself- hope i'll be in-the-mood asap, n the most important thing, get start with my uni life asap, study is better than anything else...i have to admit this...

end MOO end YEAR end

Disappear

When i think about it
I know that i was never there or even cared
The more i think about it
The less that i was able to share with u
I try to reach for you i, can almost feel you
You're nearly here
and then you disappear
disappear
disappear
disappear
disappear
...

Photo editing

ORIGINAL

the last photo above is edited using fractalius, adobe plug in, nice plug in... but demo only... that's y got little dots in the pic... help me find fractalius crack or full version pls, anyone???

MAcro Shot

not satisfied with the pics taken today actually ... all turned out to be cacat a bit here n there... last i decided to post this two only... wonder is this call macro shot... haha... anywhere do tell me where i can improve in macro shot...

and, can anyone tell me the name of this flower pls...

end MACRO end SHOT end

My H0met0wn

My hometown is at SONG, DAERAH KAPIT, SARAWAK. My hometown is a beautiful place. My hometown is very very small. My hometown got many lakian. We all stay in sheltered places, not up on the tree anymore... I love my hometown.

Rumeh a-sai aku bak SONG, DAERAH KAPITT, SARAWEK. Bajiak mat rumeh a-sai ku. tapi, mi-ek...mi-ek amat rumeh a-sai ku. Be sec mayuh or-hang iban bak di-ak. kitak semua ti-nuok bak rumeh, ukai bat atass puo-kok... aku salam dek rumah asai ku.

我的家乡在桑，加帛省，砂拉越。我的家乡很漂亮。我的家乡很小很小。我的家乡有很多拉仔。我们住在遮盖之地，不是在树上了。。。我爱我的家乡。

end WA end EI end KA end HIONG end